‘All shall be well, and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well.’ Julian of Norwich
This will be an unusual blog post. It’s unusual because I don’t often speak from a personal perspective. It seems a little self-indulgent to hold forth with my own deep thoughts when the focus ought to be on BCT and what God is doing for us. I feel it’s the right time to let my guard down a little, though, because this will be the last blog post I write for BCT. In January, I will be moving on to pastures new, setting up as a freelance tutor.
I’m looking forward to this next chapter with anticipation but also, I confess, with a little fear. I’m afraid because leaving a secure job – with awesome people – to step out into the unknown is a scary thing to do. I’m afraid because freelance life is very uncertain: there are no guarantees that I’ll succeed in making a difference or bring in enough money to put food on the table. And I’m afraid because I still really care about BCT, and I’ll no longer have the same influence over whether it sinks or swims.
But I’m confident that God is in this. I’m leaving BCT because I believe God is calling me to something else. Despite my lurking fear, I believe God will equip me for what’s ahead and provide what I need. What’s more, I believe God will provide for BCT, just as he always has. This was never really about me, was it? God was here long before I turned up and I know he’ll still be doing things we can’t even imagine, further into the future than we can contemplate. Mother Julian was right: because of God’s goodness and mercy, all shall be well.
Finally, I want to say thank you, to God and to you. I’m grateful for the chance to be a part of such a brilliant, big-hearted, life-transforming movement. I’m grateful that God has walked with me over the last eight years and that he’s still with me as I walk out of the door. And I’m grateful that you’ve borne with my fumbling attempts at communication so patiently. I believe the future truly is bright, for me and for BCT. May God bless you as you continue as part of the movement. Oh, and if you need a tutor for your teenage child, I’d be happy to help. Find me on Twitter!